We do use text but mainly from her to me. She replies by text when she has seen my email but hasn't got time to reply. I mainly text to tell her I have sent an email if I feel it is really important.

I sent an email yesterday with no text and asked if the poem she sent was personal, from her to me or whether it was just a poem she thought I would like.

I wanted to text this morning just to ask her to tell me she wouldn't send me away and that we could talk about it on Tuesday but as I was crafting it she text me saying that she thought I would like the poem because it symbolises the therapeutic relationship. That's a very half way house to my messed up mind and makes me feel that it isn't real.

I am lost now and not sure if I can do this. I need her to be direct and real but it doesn't appear that this is what she wants to be. The ideas are all there, but that is all they are, just ideas and theories.