There's been a few things in our relationship in that my mental health has relapsed recently to a point she hasn't ever seen me this unwell. I know it's not easy for her to cope with and sometimes I expect more than she can emotionally cope with. I was thinking about leaving out of what I think is a bpd moment. When I think she doesn't love me I feel like leaving because I feel like I'm forcing her to love me. Obviously at 3am my brain is talking absolute rubbish. Shouldn't throw it all away just because it's a bit tricky, we've been through a hell of a lot and for the most part still have a good relationship. Mental health illness is a b***