Why would you take aggression on yourself when you are not in the wrong here?

You know, I've spent a good decade thinking why some people seem to find admiration, find love and find everything they want. Fact is, they truly love themselves and hence are happy and confident with who they are. World subconsciously happy people and puts down sad dogs like us . 90% of communication is non-verbal and people subconsciously seem to figure out what you think of yourself with the way you walk, talk, behave...
Like...EVERYONE seem to be very good at USING me, as if I have a big giant "USE ME, I'M GULLIBLE" written on my forehead.

The happy people love themselves because they had family that taught them that they were lovable, special, admirable, adorably....and what not.

I feel the key to get out of whatever is not working in our life, is learning to love oneself. When we learn to love ourself, we empower our thoughts, wants, needs and look out for ourselves they way every person should. It's only then we are capable of loving someone else. You cannot feed someone else if you are starving yourself. It's like offering someone a pretty dress to wear while you are naked yourself.

So put dating on the back burner and understand you have problems with self-acceptance, like every wounded person does. When you are happy with yourself, somehow things fall into place and that's mainly because humans are very good at reading others subconsciously.

There are scores of self-help books. "Running on Empty" by Dr Jonice Webb is a good place to start loving yourself. I can recommend exercising and how it boosts endorphin and make you happy....but I don't do it myself, so can't recommend it. But I encourage you to write. Writing often brings the problems to the forefront and helps your mind work on it.