So I've mentioned in a different thread that lately my T has become very distant and has become very comfortable with answering phones around me and being late to session. She's always on her phone texting and calling when therapy should've started 10 to 15 minutes before. I've never said anything because she usually gets defensive and I don't want be a nuisance. I figured that she would give me that time back but she doesn't. During session she listens out to what's going on outside of the room and I just don't feel that I have her attention. Her phone will go off numerous times and about a month ago she was stretching her neck to see who was calling because she was texting someon in the beginning of my session. Then she started forgetting names, places, and events. I haven't left because I've grown to realize that Ive become attached and I don't know why. She went on vacation and I took that time to separate. I cancelled and she never asked why and then I said I'm taking a break and figured I would disappear. I texted her then telling her why I was taking a break and no response. After days she finally responded with a "time just flies and I don't know where days go". She's always come up with an excuse not to answer texts or emails. In the past 4 years it's been no reception, My child erased your message, my phone wasn't responding, and somehow I bypassed your email. There were many more. She texted me telling me that if I've grown dependent to not separate but that there is a middle ground. I'm not sure how healthy this is for Me. Also I'm either switching insurances or will not have any and i don't want deep dependent feelings to be there and have to do this process all over again. In the four years we haven't addressed in depth my childhood trauma, divorce/custody, and financial issues which I'm overwhelmed by. I have lots going on and I know I need therapy but I'm not sure if it's feasible or worth it.