T--i feel bad that i might have to text you tomorrow, but i want to make sure you are working on monday. i know i asked in an e-mail, but you probably got to the end of the novel, and with me saying "don't respond to any of this, i just need to get it out of my head," that you forgot i asked that question in the first place. also, i am slightly worried that everything is okay, because you really are so good about e-mailing back. I know you've said to text you on the weekend if i need anything, so it is okay, and it is directly related to scheduling--but still, if you are going through something right now, i don't want to bother ;(
Also--hope no one minds i respond to these posts, they just spoke to me!
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Originally Posted by ejayy78
T,
I'm not safe and no one believes me. They keep telling me that I'm overreacting.
All I want to do is hurt myself. But that won't make me safer.
If I wasn't here none of this would be a problem. But I'll be fine (whatever that means), t, I always am
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From what i've read, your abuser is out of prison, right? I'd be effing TERRIFIED, and am sorry that people around you are telling you you are over-reacting. They just don't understand.
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Originally Posted by artemis-within
T, I am hugely angry tonight. I tried to talk to h about what my sis in law said about my brother struggling with self doubt over his newest promotion and how surprised i was to hear that because I never knew he doubted himself, because he always DOES the things he doubts himself about and succeeds, and how I need to learn how to do that. H says "Well it just means that you don't really want to do it. If you really wanted to, you wouldn't doubt yourself." that felt like such a blow to me, felt like he doesn't believe in me AT ALL, and I couldn't even respond to him, I went to bed instead of trying, and I tried to fall asleep but couldn't, I heard him begin snoring in his chair in the other room not even 5 minutes later and I just pounded my fists against the wall until pictures fell down and I cried - I hate him SO MUCH sometimes - I feel like I am at a critical place in therapy right now, like it's going to go one of two ways, I am on the verge of either just letting my Self go back to sleep, calling my old pdoc to go back on medication, and go back to being numbed-out and emotionless and feeling-less like I was before I came to you, where I don't care anymore about the things I want for my life.. OR I am going to start doing what I want to do with all the fierceness of Athena and tell my h to go f himself. I can no longer live in this land of in-between.
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x a million at your husband. i get why you are furious at him, but i have a feeling that he just doesn't get it. He must not struggle with self-esteem? That is the only thing i can think of, because self-doubt most defintely can be paralyzing, and just because your brother can somehow push through his self-doubt doesn't mean you are less than because you can't. Stupid H!
Please don't put your Self away and medicate and numb. You know that is taking major steps backward. Do you guys do couples counseling?
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Originally Posted by QuietMind
T,
This article is making me squirmy.
Even conservative experts know Christian ?discipline? is abuse
You know, dear T. T...by western standards I would be abused.
T, our Asian culture...I know you think it is abuse in our culture too but T, my parents followed Dobson and Ezzo and they caned and caned in rage. 
T, am I really abused? |
Asian culture is very different than Western for sure (and since I am from the Western culture, i do not pretend to know the intricacies of your culture)..but even if your parents/culture sees this as "normal," it does NOT mean it is. Physical abuse is physical abuse...I am so sorry
