That is a hard read for sure. But this is another human being and surely you can see that he cannot be who you need him to be, how you need him to be it. There are people out there who work in this way, maybe you could try to find one. I think, as difficult as this is for you, it is for the best. It must feel as if your life has cone crashing down around you, that there is no point to life anymore and that the future is destined to be a worthless mess of pain and anguish. I have been in that place and I have pressed the self destruct button as a result. Trust me, that won't solve this either. My thoughts are with you and I just hope that you can find some strength to keep going, to try and find what it is that you need.