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RACEKA said:
I went to see T today. I was feeling fine on my way there. When I was in the waiting room I started feeling the panic coming on. I went to the childrens waiting room to be alone to deal with my panic attack. It came on all of a sudden. He had me ground myself and we did deep breathing together. I was fine and told another abuse story.

He said the problem with not feeling is because we have to integrate. Does anybody know what he's going to do? This is scary.

I've been feeling light headed all day. I just came from the grocery store and thought I was going to have a panic attack there.

I can't believe I survived what I survived.

Thanks for your help.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> you survived what you survived because of that disconnect.

your therapist is going to work gently w/ you on this and you can always ask him what his approach, in general terms, to your case will be. hopefully he'll have an answer that is satisfactory and helps ease some of your fears about this process.

that he was able to help ground you w/ breathing techniques speaks well of your trust in him.

sorry this is so hard but it is good you're at a telling stage.

feeling lightheaded after relating such deeply hidden 'secrets' of abuse is very normal. some suggestions are to try to have some routine after sessions so that you're going to know where a safe place is and what's likely to happen. i.e. getting an ice cream cone after sessions and sitting on a bench by the pond enjoying said ice cream while breathing and grounding after session. or hot cocoa or coffee or tea, etc. or go to local shopping district and wander through stores you know. bookshop, clothing, hardware, linens. or come home and take bubbly bath and let machine answer calls. or whatever it is that grounds and relaxes you.

therapy is work even when there still is a feeling of disconnect. be gentle w/ yourself while you're doing this work.