Went for lunch with some friends today then watched a couple of Louis Theroux documentaries about mental illness. Interesting to watch, it's shown me that everyone displays symptoms differently. I struggle with believing I have an illness and some of that is about how it should appear. Also because I just can't get my head around it sometimes. The Drs say my insight fluctuates. I haven't seen a dr since I left hospital, I'm a bit anxious about in case they changed my diagnosis. They probably haven't though as when I asked the dr in hospital he said it was paranoid schizophrenia.