Yes, it certainly was abuse. Words of wisdom I've learned to live by, in assessing my own situation, are: "Just because someone else had it worse, doesn't mean I had it good." It sounds as if you doubt it was abuse because other people have stories that sound so much worse to you. But your experience is abuse, plain and simple. I hope you are taking care of yourself and helping yourself to heal. Remember, you don't deserve any more pain. You've reached your limit.

Hugs,
Raya