I had a rough time in therapy last night, and I'm dealing with the "hangover" today. I have felt so bad all day that I want to resort to my traditional coping method for overwhelming sad/depressed feelings, which is cutting.

The catch is, I'm SO sad and depressed that I don't have the energy/can't be bothered to make myself do it. While I know it would at least make me temporarily feel better, all I really have the energy to do is go home, crawl into bed, pull the covers over my head, and not get up again. I'm supposed to be going out tonight, and I've been looking forward to it, and now I think "oh god, I have to mess with my hair, and dress nice, and try to be all perky and friendly to people when I feel like a completely worthless piece of s**t, and who needs it?" I just want to stay home and be a slug. I can't be nice to people when I feel this bad.
Apparently I can't even help myself, albeit in a maladjusted way, either.

sigh

Candy