Hugs to you....even for me, that was a tough read!

Just a thought....do you think if you see a woman, the transference might not be so high? I know you said you contacted another T (sounded male, also). I'm just curious if male/female makes a difference for you? I'm not all that comfortable with men, so I knew I would want a female T. And...the fact that I never knew my dad, I could see myself with some sort of paternal transference if I did see a man T.

My T whom I've been having problems with is psychodynamic. I don't think it so much matters what modality you use, it's all about the therapist. When I started looking around at other T's, I had a small list of questions to ask them, (hugs, very occasional outside contact if required, etc) and of course they had to be comfortable with me still seeing T1. That narrowed it down quite a bit. So T1 is psychodynamic, T2 is CBT and T3 is SE. I find the psychodynamic the least helpful. But, that's due to ruptures more than anything I'm sure. The CBT T really makes me think....she asks the right questions, she's very good at what she does. The SE T is also very good in her own way....she's the one I can see staying with long term. It was not my intention to be seeing 3 T's at once! So really, although I completely agree with the theory of psychodynamic psychology, I think it's way more about the therapist than what modality they use.