I was just assaulted on the bus a couple of hours ago. I don't want to rehash the whole tale right now, but it's times like this where I realize I have no friends, no real contact with the outside world. I have tried to contact the two family members I can still talk to, but one has so far ignored me and the other is so out of touch. I have no support system at all. I feel pretty worthless and invisible all the time anyway, but when things really matter, there's nobody there. It's like I could vanish completely and nobody would miss me; nobody would care. In fact, I'm sure the few people who know of me would be glad I just went away and left them alone. I hate being any sort of burden to anyone, but it seems like I'm asking too much if I continue to draw breath. I wish I could just drop dead.