I see myself in these posts a lot. I actually DID develope IBS from stressful work. I'd spend an hour in the office bathroom. Yea, very sexy. I think if im remembering correctly that you have BPD? I too have it and I'm just now making an effort to change. I'll be starting DBT soon. I'm curious, how is yours now? What kind of therapy, meds worked for you? What really got me was how you keep contacting him. I do that a lot even while in a relationship because I crave attention. Sick right? I think you got it that this relationship is over and you can't control your emotions. Hah, you should see me when I fight with my BF and he tries to leave me! I fear abandonment so much that I've blackmailed, hit, hide his keys, anything. Just slow down and really think before you speak or act. Ask yourself if this is the right thing to do. I've seen you around to know that you're very honest, put everything out in the table, and can be overbearing but it's part of BPD. Just slow down before you chase him farther away. Try ignoring him for a couple days, he may miss you. You have a strong presence about you but that's good! You're a tough cookie that needs a lot of attention.

And I'm curious, what makes you think there's someone else in the picture? That ****ing sucks man. You're strong though. Stronger than you give yourself credit for. Good luck doll.

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