I recently came out of a psych ward with a diagnosis of bipolar. Was put on cymbalta twice a day along with risperdone at night. I will give a little back story though on my past meds and situations. Growing up I had problems with getting in trouble etc etc. Checked for ADD, which came back negative. I do have depression/anxiety/social anxiety though. I didnt start trying out meds until I was 24.

Been on maybe 10 meds in my life ranging from SSRI/SNRI/NDRI/MAOI. The one thing I got out from taking anything with Serotonin was that it would give me a euphoric high, but always in a agitated state. Prozac I stayed on at 40mg for a good 5months and it wasn't fun.(didn't know any better I guess to come off)

So I had been on the cymbalta and risperdone for about 6 days and noticed my mood was improving. Felt like I could finally possibly work again,wanted to socialize a lot, just more comfortable around people. But then I start getting these bad heart palpitations and just feeling very very jumpy. Landed back in the ER and was told to go off the cymbalata. Now im back to not wanting to socialize more depression etc etc.

I have issues with the risperdone making me feel really tired and apathetic and just wanting to sleep. It did help to curb a lot of my anxiety and racing thoughts at first.

I'm just really confused on weither Im truly bipolar or not. I have heard of people taking SSRI meds and them having hypo manic issues. All I know is that I dont want to take anything with norepinephrene again cause thats to stimulating for me. Its been tough to find a PCP doc to treat me where I live.

I have always been treated for depression but this would be the 2nd time (through previous doctors) I might be bi-polar. I just feel like i fit into the full criteria of it. I tried lamictal at 300mg and it didnt do anything.(Maybe I needed to add an SSRI with it?)

When I get to see a doctor should i mention something about Lamictal or Depakote again and see if a SSRI will help? I just feel before I got off the cymbalta I had felt those euphoric 'surges' come in when I would yawn. (no clue why) It felt like it was starting to mellow down. This is just very frustrating and I want to feel good for once. So does this sound like bipolar to anyone even though I don't have the mania side of things, and its more just agitated depression/anxiety? ty