I'd like to begin by saying that this is one awesome group of people. You all have helped me in so many ways. I have been a frequent visitor here for about a year. So many of my questions have been answered. So many of my fears relieved.

My journey through the therapy process began a little over a year ago. It began as marriage therapy and is now individual. I have been seeing my T almost every Wednesday for the entire year. My appointment has always been 4:15. If he is going to be late, he will phone. Anyway, I'm sitting in the waiting room collecting my thoughts. He's late. No call. He will be in any minute, I assure myself. Finally, he walks in 20 minutes late with someone, another patient. The look on his face was total surprise.

Somehow my appointment wasn't in the rotation in his Blackberry. I've been coming here every Wednesday for a #$%&*!&* year and you can't remember? Of course I didn't say that, but I sure wanted to. I tell him I"ll just go. He says "You are not going anywhere. We still have 25 minutes." Said very nicely, so stupid me goes into the office. Once again I say I'll just go. He says we still have time. My thoughts are totally out the door and I'm leaning towards it. He begins and I can't really think of anything to say. Then after my 25 minutes "see you next week?".

Do I just "let it be"? I feel like if I do, I have made no progress. If I don't, I have made no progress. I do realize he's only human, we all make mistakes. But, I guess it's hard to accept being just another appointment in his blackberry. And why blame it on the Blackberry? How about, "I screwed up". I've spilled my guts every week. Cried a lot. Sometimes I've even managed to laugh.

What to do? What to do? Any thoughts, advice? Thanks in advance.