Thanks purple_fins,

Well I made it through day 2, eating ok - actually a bit more than normal, and handled my shift at the Distress Centre ok.

So I'm determined to restart my Antabuse in the morning tomorrow.

But I realized I'm terrified. I don't know how I'm going to face my feelings, and what I'm going to do with my time if I'm not drinking.

I've promised myself that I'm going to give myself 30 days sober, to give my brain a chance to normal out, before I start applying to jobs again, and I don't know what I'm going to do with a whole month if I don't get into rehab for June. Work on my computer upgrading courses I guess, knit lots, and maybe bumping up my harp practice.

I really want and need to be sober. I'm just scared.

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