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Originally Posted by lv99atheist
I was just assaulted on the bus a couple of hours ago. I don't want to rehash the whole tale right now, but it's times like this where I realize I have no friends, no real contact with the outside world. I have tried to contact the two family members I can still talk to, but one has so far ignored me and the other is so out of touch. I have no support system at all. I feel pretty worthless and invisible all the time anyway, but when things really matter, there's nobody there. It's like I could vanish completely and nobody would miss me; nobody would care. In fact, I'm sure the few people who know of me would be glad I just went away and left them alone. I hate being any sort of burden to anyone, but it seems like I'm asking too much if I continue to draw breath. I wish I could just drop dead.
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Hello. I am so sorry this has happened to you.
It's hard to pull out of your feelings and reactions from having gone through this, and I do hope you report this assault. You have every right to be angry. You have every right to feel hurt and to feel grief for the fact you were assaulted and no one is there for you right now.
I hope you are able to ask for some help in dealing with this. ITs really terrible to feel and think that no one gives a hoot about us or what happens to us--but that is really how most of us feel in times like this. So. Hang in there and take good care of yourself. You've been though a violent serious life changing event and you need to take care to get yourself through and over this.
For me, incidents like this always make me question myself -as if I must have it coming or am somehow to blame. It also makes me wonder if the world isnt crazy and all bad. I have even had a tendency to question why I am here. What's the point and what the heck am I doing that things keep going down the toilet for me and no one seems to give a hoot? Maybe youa re also feeling some of these things. I think it comes with the territory. It's not like, "oh, whoopty do, I just got nailed on the public bus--it'sno big deal!
This is a big deal! You have been wounded by a fellow human being.
I am glad you shared this with this forum. I ahve found that it helps make things less difficult when I dont keep things bottled up. It helps to talk things out and discover that I am not alone after all. Just like for you. I want you to know you are not alone and people do care.
I send you hugs.