Hello, Dear. I think you already know you really do need to go ask for some help with your depression and despair. There is help out there and no one should suffer needlessly like you are doing. Depression can make a person feel so wiped out and tired of even trying anymore. With depression we can stop eating and taking care of ourselves the way we should. Depression is not something we deserve but it is something that can be treated. Depression really messes with us. It takes away our initiative and will to do what we need to do, so we a have to work truly hard at getting up and going for help.

You are too precious to be feeling so badly, to be missing out on all the good stuff in life.

I send you big grandma hugs and all kinds of positive vibes. Take care and know people care about you and want you to feel good about yourself and life.