Call a crisis line. I'm on ssdi, and where I live there's an actual crisis center called Netcare. If I call them and need to come in they will even get a cab to pick me up. I went in like five times in the Winter of 2013. They got me stabilized. You aren't weak, you have an illness that makes you chemically imbalanced. You often times have little choice in how you feel. I'm stable now thanks to my Dr and the right psych meds. God bless, my prayers are with you.

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