Ever since I started this thread concerning my t visit, my depression has been worse, my anxiety is through the stratosphere thinking about the next appt., and I've just been sicker than normal. This is the only t that I've ever had with a great sense of humor. She has been my favorite t. Last visit, she mentioned the t that I had before her. He was the only t they would set me up with at the time, and I refused treatment for another 6 month until I was in crisis mode before I broke down and accepted treatment from him.

Anyway, this has knocked me around a lot. I feel as though if I get cut loose, I will lose ambition for therapy and not find another one, and I'm fairly certain without therapy I will not do well. I have always hoped that with therapy, if I get to far out/down, the t would recognize it and suggest hospital before I'm in crisis again.

I just felt the need to express myself.