It's early morning. I think I did okay yesterday. Not sure because I haven't been counting calories. I've been staying up really late into the early morning hours. I have made myself miserable over how much I weigh. I have seen even bigger women that were happy and had confidence. Why can't I? I come from a family that is severely weight conscious. My mother thought it was a real accomplishment to have had an 18 inch waist at one time. There are other things a person can be proud of too besides their body.

I used to throw up after I ate years ago but it won't work anymore. I've tried to do it and can't. It just doesn't work any more. I don't know why. Now I am stuck with the weight I gain. Well, maybe I can lose some. One day at a time. But I obsess about food and my weight at times and am getting tired of doing that. What a waste of time. It doesn't help.

I'm going to a cook out here at the apt. place on Mon. I want to stay away from the munchy food.