For me has been 20 months since termination, and I have longing that won't quit. Keeping busy helps, but that is a band aid, and the longing (also rage, despair, shame, etc) is always waiting. Having a healthy satisfying intimate relationship in the real world would seem to be the ideal remedy, but not everyone can make that happen.

Seems to me there is a lot of rationalizing of the suffering that therapy causes, including this terrible feeling of being adrift or panicked between sessions or waiting for email replies (or lingering despair following termination). When seen objectively the whole thing starts to look a bit like abuse or torture, in my view. My last T at the very end acknowledged this, briefly, then returned to insisting it was good for me.