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RiverX said:
I've got the emotional age of a toddler going on, as well as all my pd reactions.
How do you grow up? Im not making as good a job of it as I'd hoped. I seem to reamain insatiably needy, cant feel a secure senst of belonging.
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I can really identify with this River, I too am stuck at about 3yrs old. But I haven't considered a desire to want to grow out of this. I like being as open and honest (and vulnerable) as a 3yo. I wish everyone was that way - maybe we'd all treat eachother better.
I still have a desire to belong, but have been alone (emotionally) for my whole life, so don't seek to belong to the point of doing much about it. Resignation I guess.
For me, I find that I have a big desire to help and to nurture others in pain. But when things get dicey (impending death for example) I pull away - I feel I don't have the emotional resources to HELP. Most of the time tho, helping requires a great deal of typing and I have an arm disability that prevents me from being at the computer for more than 20min at a time. I can spend myself too easily between the various support groups I belong to online.
Please don't take my dissappearing act personally. It could be my arms... or it could be me just backing away until I have some advice/resources that will be TRULY helpful.
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