Hey everyone, I disappeared off the forum for a while because I was and still am struggling with a severe depressive episode right now. So after 6 months my 'friends' from medical school decide to contact me to see how I am doing and I am so angry and confused. I wish they would just cut off all contact with me because this "push and pull" thing they are doing is straining me mentally. When I was in hospital in January no one came to see me because they were busy, but now that its the holidays they finally have time for me. I understand it's hard but no one even bothered to call during the 6 months but now when they are free I must be willing to show up. What makes me more angry is that in december I tried to meet them only 1 person showed up. Am I being petty and stupid? I don't know what my real emotions are anymore.