Thanks Perna.

My first pdoc mentioned BPD near the end of our time and gave me a book that freaked me out when I read it .. on BPD. Then my second pdoc (most recent) said that I had features but not BPD. A group leader suggested a book for me as a clinician that was about BPD and I wonder if there was something behind that.

Irregardless I am in a pickle. I am feeling unsupported and am dependent (embarrassing but I am sharing the truth) and need to become more independent but feel the need, as folks here say, to be held emotionally at this time. It is difficult.

Thanks for your input. I am rather vulnerable right now and reading all of this BPD stuff makes me feel like some hope has vanished and I am in for a life sentence or something.

If I can, sitting back might be good...you are right. Guess I am doing my homework at least for when I do this. Thanks again.