I learned not to expect anything from anyone a long time ago. People will disappoint you and you will disappoint others. Try to be grateful if people want to see you and if they don't, don't take it personal because it probably isn't. We all have so much on our plates in this life. So many of us are just hanging on by a thread. If your friends hurt you, let them know. They might surprise you by being more understanding. Big hugs and I'm sorry you were let down by the people you care about.