I hope the hospital was beneficial for you, Secret. It's good to see you back, but so sorry for all you are going through. You must be really stressed out with having to go back to work in the midst of all this.

<-- all of us at PC, hugging you.

As far as "interviewing" a pdoc or T-- well I have never done that... I just sort of go and see what happens.

It works pretty well. It only took me 8 years and 7 pdocs to find the right one. lol.... seriously though, I found my T through psychologytoday.com and the "find a therapist" feature they have on there. My specific therapist is not on there; rather I found the place where I go to therapy there and just happened to get lucky and end up with my T. The reason I like the Psychology Today thing is because of the biographies and the fact that you can find someone with a specific orientation-- and payment type, if you need... so that's how I came upon the place I go to therapy... I was looking for psychoanalytical and sliding fee scales... but as far as ending up with my actual T, that was just luck... I called the place and said, "Just gimme someone male." lol

I have spent many years under the BPD label. Lots of BPD books suck. Remember, whether or not you have label of BPD, you are still dealing with a certain set of symptoms and coping mechanisms that you were dealing with before you even thought of being labeled BPD-- so just because someone decides to call it something doesn't make your situation any less hopeful.