I'm so sorry you ever had to experience that. I'm sure your T must think its a good assignment so that he/she can better understand your feelings, but its a hard thing and sometimes doesn't always seem very helpful. I think you should definitely be honest about all of your emotions so you can be better helped to possibly move beyond this because you are so much more than a victim. Some things can't be forgotten though, only somewhat glossed over... I understand how you feel though... I've never been able to be close to a guy for a very long time because I can't forget... and I can no longer trust. I'm hoping that one day I can move beyond my fears and that you can also.