Hello,

I have had depression for about three years. When I was at secondary school I was bullied by a lot of people in my year. My best friend at the time lied and betrayed me in a really awful way and I have never been able to really trust people again. My nickname at school was The Hunchback of Notre Dame or The Hunch. I found some very old facebook photos that I was in recently from before I had facebook and I had been labelled as The Hunchback of Notre Dame. Also, my first boyfriend once said that I either had a really attractive face or a meh face and that I should always have my hair up because I looked way hotter. It makes me feel like even someone who was meant to be into be thought I was not that attractive. Recently I have been having some very obsessive and paranoid thoughts. I can't stop comparing to myself and my others around me. Even my closest friends which I hate because I get so jealous! I feel so ugly on the outside and really awful and weak on the inside. I am quite shy so I feel like I am ignored a lot of the time. I don't know how to get these thoughts to stop. They are a recent occurrence and I have no idea why it's all coming back to hurt me now.

Sorry for all the rambling,

ToffeeBomb