Is there anyone that can act as a third party for you here. It is so sad but your relationship has completely broken down and any more contact may only serve to hurt you further. You need your meds sorting, you need to be clear how this is to be achieved but you may not be the person to do this. I would understand if there wasn't anyone you could call on here, I know I wouldn't have, but if there is anyone then it might be an option.