Quit getting your head involved where your feelings are concerned! I know you've heard of love at first sight. Talk about strangers! :-) And I know I got cold feet at the altar, after 5 years of intimacy with the man I was marrying because I suddenly thought, "What do I really know about him???!!" LOL

You know you (we all do!) have all kinds of "balances" going on to help you with your distances to/from others/your T. It's a dance and I think you're calling up the stranger thing when you get afraid of the intimacy? Intimate thought? He's a stranger. He seems to be distant, you want his lap :-)