Tomorrow, I have my first appointment with my (new) therapist.

Any (general) advice? It's the first time having (hopefully) regular appointments with a psychologist after knowing what is wrong with me and getting the full pharmacotreatment and without being manic (which wasn't conducive to good therapy).

I tried to come up with a list with issues. There are six things on it: self-damaging behaviour, confusion, emotional reactivity, uncertain certainty (or certain uncertainty, I'm not certain), interpersonal problems and splitting. Items 2 and possibly 1 make it difficult to talk about any of this and 3, 4, 5 and 6 make it not unlikely that I won't be in therapy for long or that it really is going nowhere. Prejudice and stigma together with suspicion and fear of rejection or abandonment don't help.

But any advice, not just pertaining to the B-word, are much appreciated.

I'm not as bad as I used to be. It's rather mild. I mean, some people are just incompatible with the likes of us. But I do wish I could adapt. But many years have passed since my parents wondered whether giving me a beating would void the warranty (just kidding, about the warranty , no it was nothing serious, really).

I have strong ideas and no idea and no impulse control. So this is gonna be fun.