Hi, Angela,

I cried on the way home from work today. . . different from usual turning all of this around and around in my head. I cried. I want to write what I need to write here, and I've been able to write a little. . .and write a forced blurt - but to go through it. . .and feel it. . .all over again - that's agony.

I hope for you and myself both that we can write what we need to write. I need this. I need to heal from it. And I can't heal unless I can begin to get it out and do something with it.

Today was the first day that I actually saw a forum for abuse survivors. Imagine that! I have read each forum several times, and last night went to bed a dissapointed because I didn't quite know where I fit in. Today the forum about jumped off my computer screen - isn't it amazing how your brain doesn't let you see something until you're ready? I'm ready. Just in pain. . . a lot of pain. But I'm going to push forward. I hope you do so as well.

Beth