I'm so sorry for what you're going through - your pain and confusion is really clear. Do you feel safe in this therapy situation? Like, would you want to continue? Because it sounds like maybe your T is giving you some options or trying to make it easier in a way. Will you be able to see her privately or is she only allowing in the clinic? Maybe you need to tell her you need more help. 35 mins doesn't sound like enough, I can't even imagine such a short session could resolve much.
I totally get the rejection thing...It's the most hurtful experience. But you DO deserve help. You really do.