It sounds like your T thinks seeing her in the clinic is better for you, in her opinion. But like Chris says, it's not clear. What is clear to me is that this has nothing to do with her thinking you're horrible or not wanting to help you anymore! You're not horrible and you ARE a good person to be around. Your T is NOT rejecting you!!

Maybe you can discuss it again and make it clear you do want to be in private practice with her? It's not clear if She's giving you a choice or not. I'm sorry you feel so bad but i think there is some misunderstandings about what your T said to you. I can imagine how confusing it was and how your head was spinning from all the information. I hope you can realize that you are not a horrible person!