I was on the way to therapy last week when traffic came to a standstill. I was concerned I was going to be late, so I called T to let him know what was going on. We discussed where I was and we would start our session on the phone if I didn't make it on time. I ended up getting there right on time. As T greeted me, he said he had just checked his phone to see what was going on. I didn't really think about it in the moment, but now I'm wondering if he was questioning if I was being honest about why I may be late, or was he really just curious as to what happened? I know all of you will probably say he was just wanting to see what happened, but sometimes I struggle with wondering if T believes the things I tell him. When I think about all the crap I've been through, I often think how in the world can so much **** happen to one person? It's insane. And to feel like maybe he was questioning me, by looking the traffic report up, bothers me.

On another note, I found a couple of T's social media accounts yesterday. No, I don't feel bad about looking him up. And, no, I don't plan on telling him I found him either. I may be slightly offended by some of the things I saw, but it's my fault for looking. I guess I get the importance of the whole 'blank slate' thing now. Oh well...