Hey Pink.... I love these hug things you have going on here. Saw an individual one you did earlier. Very cute.

Thanks for your response.

The hospital facilitated the break up with my pdoc so I am not sure. I was antsy the whole time and still am a bit now. Not a fond experience but I suppose the thing to do. The family has
all bought the Stop Walking on Eggshells book and I am kinda bumping in to walls here.

Please know that this hospital faciliatated this (though probably it was time this was not how I envisioned this) and I am doing a partial DPT program but that somewhere after this huge bomb drop I was told I can not talk to the person that facilitated this because she is inpatient. I understand this... but I do feel that I am flailing and that I was just dropped in to thin air whilst still being vulnerable. Feel free to share this with YOUR facility. I do not think I was asking much of her except to help build a bridge. The DBT is nice but is a totally different language for me.

Pink, I am not even sure how to work this through.

I am worried about work and being able to handle it right now and worried about my mortgage, etc...

I did take a look at the Psychology Today site and thank you for that. It is interesting and there are new names i have not heard of.

After 20 years of therapy I wonder if I can find someone good to take me. I am working to do this alone but would like others to help me but I think that they are now in the tough love phase. I do not blame them (family) but it is difficult and I do feel somewhat abandoned but there ya go.... the pdoc at the hosp said that would be coming out big time.

I suppose I thought that I would fix myself or my T would and now I am finding that ....this may be it. Oi vey. Thanks for your thoughts. I just feel less hopeful but if I worked my DBT I would work that out.

Do you have any thoughts about unconscious alliance. My pdoc said that consciously we were allied but not unconsciously. I am afraid that maybe I am not able to do this unconscious stuff if I have not after all of these years. That would be devastating.