Angry, panicked, miserable, betrayed, abandoned, and alone.
I was convinced by a handful of people (most of all my sister) to kill myself. Not by insinuations, but outright demands that I must do it, and should do it.
I went to the hospital, where I felt ashamed that I didn't die, like I thought I should have.
I was 11, so the memory is old, but the psychological torture from those people made a mark on the person I am today.