My problems stem from being bullied years ago while at university,I was desperately lonely and wanting to fit in so I allowed an increasingly severe level of abuse from so called 'friends',but they were never my friends really.I was rejected and ostrasized by them all in the end after they made me into a laughing stock.

Ever since then I fear being in groups or meeting a new set of people in a group.I am better one to one.My main problem is going everywhere and being so alone.It is emotionally painful to feel lonely!And lets face it at times we need company or we need help with physically demanding tasks or something that takes two and it is frustrating to know that no one cares enough to be with me.I don't know how to overcome this it has been my problem for years.i get to the stage where I can visualize myself loving someone and being loved in return but it never materializes.Why not?