I've slowly come to the realization that I actually find relationships to be a pain. People are incessantly needy. People are energy vampires. But when you are not in a relationship, you can simply avoid that person....walk away, stop taking their calls or yell "stop bugging me" on their face.

But when in a relationship, it just so PAINFUL to be with a person. You cannot walk away. You have to be available when they need you. You have to answer to them. You have to take care of their needs, likes, dislikes, whims and fancies.

For example, I have to cook dinner. I ask person A what they want. They'd say they want pizza. But person B hates pizza, they like pasta. Then I break my head to cook something that makes them both happy. But if I am not in any relationship....I can simply cook what I want or order from outside and move on to the next task.

Relationships involve some level of control and tweaking your life to suit theirs (and I'm sure they do that too) and I really hate that. I love having complete control over my life - right from when to wake up to what to cook to where to live to what to do. I feel like I can live with a person as long as it's not tainted by relationship and all that baggage that relationship brings. My ideal "marriage" would be living in separate houses 2-3 miles apart and meeting when we feel like - committed dating forever.

It's not like I hate people. I like helping others. I like making others happy. But in relationship you tend to take things for granted and somehow saying "no" doesn't seem like an option.

Is there something wrong with me? Or is there something wrong with me? Or do others feel that way too.