Marylin,

Thank you so much for your post. Your sharing yourself makes me feel stronger. We are not alone.

I am sorry that I cannot tell you how to resolve the issue. I only recently started sharing on here and admitted my overeating problem to myself.

I have slowed the gaining, although I do fluctuate, by trying to choose my food better. Like, a watermelon. I am in a phase where I prefer vegetables, fruits etc and although I am overeating and binging ridiculously, at least I try to have what I choose to be something with less calories. Being overweight is why I occasionally vomit, or force myself to have a bowel movement.

I have a theory that what we choose is tied up in what we say we shouldn't choose. On my tight disability budget, I don't have the funds to eat whatever I want. So, I guess the limitation of finances has a small silver lining.

I learned that we need to ignore the interior aisles of a grocery store and try to focus on actual food - not processed. I have been choosing a lot of dairy, butter and cheese to go with my vegetables and meat. These things to me are a luxury.

I have no answer. I do think when we choose to eat something, even if it is bad for us - it is because we are feeling a kind of desperation and for me, even a right. It is hard to unravel my obsessed emotions.

(Even if I choose vegetables, or w/e is bad in the amounts I eat, plus since I add noodles, or mayo, or dairy it is still bad for me, just better then eating a whole bad of doritos like I used to).

My first reaction when I posted and read what others posted, was to eat even more. Like, suddenly knowing I wasn't alone my response was to release my tension - but it lasted only a couple of weeks for me. Now I have incorporated reaching out at psych central during an obsession. It doesn't mean I don't overeat or binge, but it means I have that pause in my head where I do a reach out. I do believe it is beginning to help.



I hope you keep sharing and reaching out. Each of our problems varies. There isn't some easy solution, but I do believe the key is examination of the emotional bundle that happens - to see the patterns of when we do it, and avoid those times, or add some new element to the habitual behavior. Like, I even do little exercises while I wait for the microwave, or I cook rather then eating something fast because the cooking process slows me down.

Lol, I guess that is where I am at in my process. I have released the hope for some quick fix and am trying to focus on slowing my habit down.

Best of luck to us all. <3