Hi all. I know it's been a while but thats because ive been working and I actually didnt see my T for 2-3 weeks because I honestly had no motivation to go and talk to her about anything. Today I had a session and it was sort of odd. My T was like drilling me with questions that were off topic about what we originally had talked about and I'm still thinking about it now. Like she asked me if I want relationships and how most of her clients my age (20+ I guess) talk about their bf/gf and dating and such. I never talk to her about it because I get super uncomfortable and she just added on saying that she wants me to know that it's a safe place and that I should know there is somewhere I can talk about it and its with her. I just found that really odd and random to be honest. I guess she compares me to other clients and since I dont have a boyfriend or have been in a relationship she finds it odd? Its not like I dont think about it, on the contrary, almost all my time is wondering why i dont have a bf or wishing I did, but I dont feel comfortable talking to her about that, just with friends. I dont know, maybe I read into it a lot or something. Then she asked me about this guy ive been seeing as friends for like 5 years and how that is and I lied to her face and said it was still fine and were still friends, when in reality hes ignoring all my texts and blowing me off and not texting me at all anymore. Like why was my therapist so interested in knowing all this thats what im curious about...

Anyways, she assigned some hmwk for me to do for next week and one of them was to write about something that happened to me a while ago that made me into the person I am today. Problem is, I know exactly what happened but I dont want to talk about it/bring it to session. Also, I want to include in the email why I dont see that guy anymore and why I dont want to talk about that anymore in session because it pisses me off.. At the end of the session I was about to ask my T and say what if I know what the trigger was but i dont want to talk about it, but of course time was up and she had another client.

Now im debating on emailing her and telling her that but at the same time dont know if I should because I feel like I'll be a bother or something.