Thank you everyone, I know I need to just allow myself to have a hard time right now. I still don't know what I am doing though. I have been doing some things I know that I am not ready for nor my system is ready for. I just don't seem to really care anymore, I don't even think about them very much and I know that I need to, cause In a way all I am doing is ignoring myself. I just need to continue trying to get better and I need to put a stop to what has been going on, but I just don't know if I can. I hope that I can though, I just really am having a hard time with it. I need to think of me, well and that means all of me, my system and all. I do have a T and I am going to talk with her about all of this tomorrow. I need to take things more seriously. Thank you all for your support and kindness.

Jennifer