I don't have a therapist anymore. I had one for a couple years but the relationship kind of became sour when she just kept telling me to try the same things I was telling her that weren't working. I left her last August but haven't found one that I click with yet. I'm not looking for one that is specifically trauma related. I don't do well with other therapists who hear my trauma background and do the overly-empathetic "I'm so sorry that happened to you." Nope! I haven't learned to develop empathy for myself yet so it just sounds like pity or worse, like I'm destroying their innocence. I need someone who can listen to my story and just nod in understanding. I have a call into therapy office that has two therapists who are certified in EMDR through EMDRIA. My previous therapist tried doing EMDR with me but it wasn't much of a success because like I mentioned before, when I become triggered my eyes don't track. Well I recently learned that EMDR just needs to be bilateral stimulation and that there are other options than just eye movement.

I've never heard of such a thing. I wouldn't even know where to look for something like that.