It's so hard sometimes but know you're not alone. I have all this what my dad calls 'useless trivia knowledge' in my head that I don't know what to do with. Getting a PHd would just be fulfilling a quest for knowledge. Not sure what I would actually do with it. I could be a professor or teach high school religion but I'm not sure I'm fit for either of those jobs.

As for sewing and design....it used to be my passion. I loved it so much. I've been seeing since I was like 10 years old (my grandmother was a seamstress) and now it kind of feels like a chore. I hate that it feels like that. It's kind of crushing to lose interesting something I loved so much. I also collect vintage clothing, and lately even going diving through second hand shops and vintage stores (one of my all time favorite past times) is taxing on me.

Hopefully things will get better for both of us. Hugs.