I am so sorry that you feel this way! All I can offer is that it will get better if you DO something. Something small. It doesn't have to be a doctor visit, (even though that's the best option because talking about it and getting some pills could work wonders).

But draw something, write it down, keep posting! I offer you all the hugs in the world and I wish I could take away your pain!

It will get better, if there is hope for me there is hope for everyone!