Everyone's asleep. I can't sleep. I want to crawl out of my skin. I'm obsessing over a limited edition piece of art I saw at IKEA today that I didn't buy. I'm exceedingly angry at my sister for stupid reasons. Every time I scroll past her name or a picture of hers on social media I want to reach through my iPad and punch her in the face. My apartment is messy and I'm obsessing about that too. I feel the intense need to clean it up, but it's too late at night, I don't want to wake anyone and I don't have the physical energy to do it. I have a million and one things going on in my mind and I can't control or focus on any of them. My ears are ringing so loudly that it's deafening. I have a headache and my stomach is upset. I can't stop shaking. I took a benzo and it didn't help take the edge off of anything. I've had a really bad day. I want to sleep but I'm afraid to because of nightmares. I apparently started screaming in my sleep last night but I don't remember doing it. Right now I want to run outside into the forest and scream as loud as I can. I hate feeling like this. I don't know what to do.