My oldest son, who is 21 is suffering severe depression right now. I suspect he might be bipolar but I'm not a doctor. He has just quit another job, he isn't able to function to take care of his daughter and can barely get out of bed. He has been on and off meds for the last 2 years. But it feels like the meds make him worse. When he is on them he barely sleeps and starts setting goals that are just grandiose in nature. He does this for a few weeks and then collapses.

Tonight he told me he couldn't live like this anymore. He said he would do a consult for inpatient treatment.

I feel so helpless, worried and sad. My husband doesn't understand, his step-dad and he is so far from supportive in this matter that I want to leave him. My guilt over my son's mental illness is eating me up. I was in such denial when things started going wrong.

Sigh. I'm just scared. I hate this.

#Life is a beautiful lie#