Thanks so much Anrea.

I love this:Anrea finds peace in silence. Safety in solitude. Contentment in reduced expectation. Companionship in acceptance

These words help me a lot.

Well done you for making your money stretch!

I used to be agoraphobic with severe panic attacks.I stopped the panic attacks by making them happen and staying put throughout,a technique called flooding.

You just say bring it on,whatever happens happens, and then go ahead and put yourself in the situations you are scared of which for me was going out alone.

What is the worst can happen right?Well when I did that I found nothing bad happens it was just my thoughts scaring me.

I saw a therapist too,hypnotherapist and eventually I was over the agoraphobia.

The social phobia is more tricky I come from a family of perfectionists who were into shaming us for any reason ,dust on top of the wardrobe, being fat,the clothes I wore.The shame and embarrassment they put us through was horrible,so people and being around them and criticized or ridiculed is what I fear now.

I went to bed early last night and am up early I feel much better and ready to tackle the shop.

Thanks so much for your support.I don't have a car which is one of the reasons I got over the agoraphobia.

My narcissistic abusive sister used to take me shopping with her in her car, every so often she have a tantrum and reject me and after one such episode I felt abandoned and helpless, I was agoraphobic at that time.

I forced myself to get a taxi to the shops and back,and I felt better for conquering my fear of doing that, I had reclaimed my power.

Of course narc sister didn't like me being independent and so became kind and helpful to give me lifts and make me scared of going alone again.

I eventually realized she was doing this deliberately to make me feel helpless without her, so I'd depend on her.What a *****,eh?

I cut her out of my life a year and seven months ago.35 years of abuse I suffered from her!She was the root cause of my agoraphobia.

Yes,Anrea, thanks for your support,I will remember you whilst I do my shop later!