Yeah, I know in the depression forum we probably don't want to hear how good someone is doing. But I'm going to share anyways.

I have treatment resistant chronic severe major depressive disorder. I haven't had anything resembling a good day in months. Today I finally had a day where I felt "normal" and had the energy to do things, and wasn't forcing myself to care about my life.

I woke up early because even though it's a holiday I'm used to getting up early for work. So I got all my bike stuff together and rode my bike to my office to plan my bike commute route because I want to start biking to work twice a week to lose weight. (We have showers at work so I can shower when I get there.)

Then I took my dog cross town to a new dog park that has a water park for the dogs in it. He played for about 30 minutes and wore himself out in the sun and water and chasing balls and other dogs. It was awesome, although my back hurt a little by the time we were done.

Then I went grocery shopping. Ate lunch had a nap. Then did my hair, bleached the roots and touched up the color. It looks great. Then I ran some errands and did laundry and cleaned the kitchen up plus I unpacked the boxes in the bathroom and cleaned up the bathroom.

Now I've been powering down by surfing the forums...I can't believe I had such a great day. I hope this is the beginning of a trend and maybe meds and everything is finally starting to work. It would truly be a miracle.

I've worked hard to have a good day like this. Trudging through work days and forcing myself to do things and self care and take care of my apartment and my dog and my life even though I'd rather just .

I just wanted to share that if you're feeling super depressed like nothing will ever change and that you'd just rather end it all, to hold on, because good days do still happen and they are worth it.

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